Struggles Through the Storms

I would like to share a few of my struggles where I know God was there right beside me helping me through. Some of what I have learned through them.

I was 11 yrs old when the first one happened. My Grandma had passed away. I had been very close to her. She was my spiritual mentor in life. I believed at a young age and remember praying to be able to walk just like Jesus. I loved being with my Grandma and reading the Bible and learning. When she passed I went through the first struggle that question Why God she followed you faithfully. I grew bitter at God. I didn't want to believe anymore. I struggled for a month with this then something happened one night when I went to bed and ya, still yelling at God in my prayers telling him why should I follow you promised eternal life to those who followed and my Grandma followed prayed every day and helped many, you took her away. I had did that every day and night but that night God sent her in a vision. She woke me up and there was a bright light all around her. She said my girl I am ok and happy, I am home now. She said to me remember what I taught you and continue to pray. She explained what Jesus meant when he had said eternal life. John: 10:27-28 “My Sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me, and give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish.”

Well I woke up the next day in a brighter light. I still miss her but know she is okay. And one day I will see her again. From that day I learned the answer to the question Why God did that happen!! I do not ask it I follow and believe.

This struggle is one I never imagined having to go through. But as I said we are never alone. Jesus is right there beside us. If we open our hearts and eyes we see it but we must fully trust in him as he says in: Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”

My son Jason was struggling with health issue for a few years and those struggles ended 6 yrs ago. God had called him home age 27. I remember a year before he would try and tell me I might not make it. Of course I tried not to put that in my head. I continued to pray and tell him things will get better. Every once in awhile he would say something to me in that way. Deep down I knew God was trying to prepare me. I just continued with the hope. Then the beginning of that year Jason started really saying things like Mom make me some promises before I go, or I know you will do what I asked because I am like you and you are like me. My eyes and heart were wide open to God. I trusted Him and knew whatever was about to happen, He was there in this storm and I would get through it.

My heart still aches. That will never fully go away till the day my time has come to go home. Knowing it's not forever and I choose to continue to shine my light even in the storm. Trust in the Lord fully and he will be there to comfort you and bring you through. All our struggles are real but the main lesson is it's how we deal with those struggles even through tragedy.

I hope this helps some get through some of their struggles.

God Bless,

Lynn